I don't know what being Poly is, for the last three years I thought I knew. I wanted poly to be Rob and I in a relationship with another women who loved us both. One who wanted to spend the day and night with both of us equally. I wanted that to be us, a happy loving trio snuggling on a bed together.
Realistically that is not what poly is for us, Poly for us is two women sharing a man. Heather and I have nothing to do with each other, we are friends and that is about it. I would love to say we are like sisters at least but we are not, we are just comfortable friends. In someways this is not bad but I dreamed of so much more, Heather will never be that snuggling girl for me. I have come to except this about our life, I don't think we will ever find a girl who can be that for both of us.
THAT is exactly what I want, and I'm not getting it, girl OR boy. Blah.
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't discount it. You just don't have it in Dennis.
ReplyDeleteI just don't think it is possible for us sadly, as much as I would like it.
ReplyDeleteCatanya -- this is Heidel/Soldia from PolyPerx. That is what happened in my triad too. My hubby's wife started out involved, then withdrew. We are so rocky now and I think it's because our relationships are unequal. It's our husband and his two wives and even though Wife and I love each other (as friends and sister wives), our relationship with Hubby is much stronger than our relationship with each other. Which is sad, and too bad.
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