The Walking Dead

The show is amazing, it truly highlights the comic without completely following it page for page.  I have had my ups and downs with the comic, there was even a point where I had to stop reading it for awhile because it was too much.  I did finally come back because I still loved it, I just needed to take some time to not hate what had happened and understand that it was needed.  I hope that the show gets the chance to make people think and really decide if they can love it or hate it. 


Watch the show if you get the chance and read the comic, really read the comic it is the best I have seen in a very long time.  Give it a chance you may come to love it as much as I do.

Sister Wives 2

I know the show has been done for awhile but I really wanted to say how much I really loved the show and I really do hope that they have a second session.  I think what I want most is for it to keep the same feeling of honesty and truth.  They seemed so real and honest, sometimes it hurt, they really wanted people to see what their life was really like and to know how they truely felt about it all.

I was able to identify with all of the wives in one way or the other.  The feelings of jealousy, hope, trust, love, frustration, and passion for the way they lived.  They where never ashamed of the way they lived, they where happy to be in the relationship they just had to deal with the occasional issue.

That is all I really had to say about it at this point I really hope that they get a chance to share more of their lives with all of us.

Dreaming Of Me

It has been a long time since I have gotten to have a me moment.  Things have been so crazy and stressful at work and home is busy with all the stuff we do that I just don't have time.  I have to drop Ellie at daycare, then work then I pick up Ellie, then I go to the Gym three times a week, do my chores once a week, take care of Ellie when I am not doing that.  The weekends are full of Dagorhir practices on Saturday, and gaming on Sunday. I just want a moment to breath.

I had a dream where I was just walking in a stream, rocks where digging in to my feet and cutting them but I did not care.  I felt so calm and full of the feeling of me that it did not matter the pain or cold.  I feel like that is what I need in my life something to make me not care about the being tired and stressed.

Ellie is a big help everyday when I go and get her from day care, I am so excited I'm almost running to get to her room.  Then she smiles at me when she sees me at the door and I just melt, it's so much of what I thought being a mom would be.   

My life is not that bad I have a place to leave, a job, an amazing man who loves me and has the ability to love more, a baby that I have wanted for so long, and friends and family who really care about me.  How can I want more, and yet I do.  Just a breath, sometime to lean back and look at all that I have.