Confidence

As this all happens I can't help thinking am I really that great or is he just saying it, I don't want to fish for compliments I feel like I just can't stop bitching about myself.  I want something but I just don't know what it is, and I how can I get it if I don't know what it is.  I'm tired of being this whacked out person and feeling lost. Can't I have a revelation like those people in the movies like "bingo!" can't I have that.

I want to be worth something, I don't want to be broken any more. I want to be a person to look at, to want, to still fall for. I just don't know how to feel that way anymore, don't know where my confidence has gone.