Sex

First off this post is going to go into some pretty in-depth detail about my sex life so if you don't want to know don't read it. Second I have nowhere else to write it so it's going up, deal.

I guess I have to start with my husband I love him but when it comes to sex he pretty much bores me. When we first started going out I was 18 and he was 32 and sex was great, we did all sorts of things. I have a little bit of a submissive and bondage fetish so I got to really explore that with him, which was part of the reason I really liked him. I used to have bruises all over from the bites he would give me and I even got in to choking a little too. I was 18 not even in the prime of my sexuality and I could have easily had sex 3 or 4 times a day if not more.

Now my sex life sucks, and it mainly has to do with my husband. Basically after the first year and a half of us going out it all started to go down hill, I can't blame him at first things where stressful and that sort of got him down and he was getting older as well. But getting older will affect you stamina it should not affect the way you have sex. No more choking, no more biting, I am lucky if I get some nipple tweaking that is his idea of foreplay. I think the kissing is the worst part, I love to kiss I mean I really love to kiss. With my husband kissing is just plan blah, 9 times out of 10 kissing is a peck on the lips. I understand this when you are around your friends you can't go making out but when we are in bed together I expect something more, and I don't get it. I miss the oh so gentle press of lips, the sweet longing as your lips part and a tip of tongue is thrust forward. I want that god damn it and I think I should be able to have that. With sex it's self the stamina has defiantly gone down. I have trained my self to cum quickly otherwise I don't get too, and the only position I get now is on top. Don’t get me wrong that's great but it basically means he has to do no work at all.

Last but not least the oral part, I get to do that a lot. Because mainly that’s all my husband wants and I just don't know how to say I really don't want to. Partially it's my fault because I sort of pride myself on being good at it and I made it clear that I would love doing it. Now I basically try to do the best I can well being as quick as I can to get it over with.

I feel bad complaining about my husband like this but I just don't know what else to say. In other ways he makes me really happy. He makes me really laugh which I rarely do and snuggling with him is like a wonderful dream. Our likes are a lot of the same things as well as our dislikes which makes our life nice. I don't think I could live with out him, he just is a part of my life I need. I just wish the sex part of our life could be better, because I don't know what the hell I'm going to do when I'm in my thirties and forties and at my sexual peak and he will be in his sixties and seventies. Thank god for Viagra.

Now I also love sex with girls, I have not gotten to really play with that to much but what little I have gotten to do have been great. I love kissing girls it's like silk on silk, soft lips meeting and tasting sweet nothing. I have always loved the female form and its lovely curves and fullness; I am one for meat on the bone. Venus was not a super model she was a lovely plumb goddess of soft hips, breasts and tummy chub. God I could go on and on forever on the things I would like to do with a girl but I don't think everyone needs to hear that. I would love more then anything to get more into the world of girl on girl but I have to tell you that can be so hard. I have to find someone my husband will like and she can't spend too much time on me or he will get jealous. I can't get to pissed I chose to get married and I would never go back I love my life I just miss some of the chances I don't get.

Oh well that's it for now who knows I will probably post about this again at some point, it's a subject that comes up a lot I guess.